WHEN I FEEL NOT READY, BUT THAT'S NOT IT #LifeisReallySomethingEssays

HV. 23:04. April. 2026

#LifeisReallySomethingEssays

Sometimes we need more time to think for the readiness and making us pull away to think more.

But, the time is always not ready.

I used to think that "more time" will answer my "pain" until it took 2 years which I used to call "ready"

But, it was not about time. It was a feeling.

My feeling use the time as alibi, and once I step to the new path, I call it ready.

But, the readiness is bias. Logically, I make my self stepping to the new path, cuz logic makes me think "we never know if we never try"

Its logic create the curiosity and sometimes the answer is not what I expect.

But, at least I know that I won't pull away by using the time for the readiness and will do try for any answers towards my chances.

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SPIRAL #LifeisReallySomethingEssays

HV. 20:19. April. 2026

#LifeisReallySomethingEssays

I just read the good book from "101 Essays That Will Change The Way You Think" and it says "We create our own problems to address the things we know would otherwise become issues outside of control"

But, I think the problem is like I enter the spiral mode.

I create the spiral big and bigger instead of finishing the exit line since I feel alive within the spiral just like a comfort zone.

The truth is, my spiral is my growth.

It combines my logic and passion to encourage me go to the exit line to become the new me.

When it feels heavy,

I try to stay

I try to smile

I try to cry

I try to laugh

I try to grief

I try to rest

I try to trust

I try to scream

...and I try to being present!

But, it never makes me give up.

Once the spiral created the new me, I might create the others spiral for the tough me.

Feel it. Release it.

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